For the past 4 weeks, we've been holding our breath.
I didn't want to get too far in the planning, too attached to the idea of a little growing inside, but today...wow. Today was a turning point and now I'm really allowing myself to believe that this baby is real!
We had our first ultrasound today! At first, it was terrifying. S was scared, I was scared. Leading up to this day, I have been frightened of receiving bad news. I've imagined looking a blank screen and being told "sorry", and all sorts of sad outcomes. I really tried not to think about these things, but I couldn't help it.
This morning, I got up, drank my 2 bottles of water, and we headed to the clinic. After a short wait, the technician called us in and directed me onto the table. Thankfully, it was a transabdominal (yay, no probing!). As I lay there, I saw a black circle on the screen, then a couple of little fuzzy blobs in the circle. The techician didn't say anything and continued to click and zoom and measure. Since she was measuring, I assumed that she was measuring something good! S was going crazy with wonder as well.
She said that my right side was gassy (!) and that it was difficult to see the ovary on that side. She had found the baby on the left and was looking for a baby on the right! Since it was so hard to see, she didn't find anything on the right side. I hope that we'll conclusively know if there is or isn't something there during our next ultrasound. Note to self: No gassy foods the day before the next u/s.
Our little bean looks healthy and is dated at 7 weeks 5 days with a estimated due date of June 3, 2009. All that reading and researching - and I got the date right! Woot! The technician pointed out the yolk sac, the baby, and the heartbeat! It was so amazing to see that little heartbeat. It looked like two little wings fluttering - and fluttering strong! We were relieved and delighted. S did a little dance behind the technician and I got all teary-eyed. It's alive! Alive!

We were still stunned when we walked out of the clinic, but ecstatic. We called our moms to update them on the healthy report and of course, they are both extremely happy! It's a wonderful day! Yay!
Our next ultrasound is November 21st for the 12 week ultrasound, Integrated Prenatal Screening (IPS) and an appointment with Dr. V. We received a schedule of the anticipated appointments for the next 7 months:
Nov 21st - 12 wk u/s, IPS, Dr appt
Dec 18th - 16 wk IPS - just bloodwork
Jan 8th - 18 wk Level II u/s, Dr appt
Feb 4th - 22 wk Dr appt
Feb 25th - 26 wk Dr appt, 1 hr sugar test
Mar 25th - 30 wk Dr. appt
Apr 8th - 32 wk Dr. appt
Apr 22nd - 34 wk Dr. appt
May 6th - 36 wk Dr. appt
May 13th - 37 wk Dr. appt
May 20th - 38 wk Dr. appt
May 27th - 39 wk Dr. appt
Jun 3rd - Due date!